In order to know yourself and where your going you have to know your past. The past is not to be used to dictate your future its there so you can learn from it and create you own way. God gave men free agency and with free agency comes great responsibility. The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the one. I have been on this journey for many many years and with all that I have learned and been exposed to I know there is so much more out there. I pray that heavenly father keeps guiding me as I am seeking answers to questions I have had since the beginning. For those out there that are scared and don't know anything you can do this I was you and through prayer to Heavenly father he has shown me the way when it comes to geneology and many other things. Don't stop keep going. Seek and ye shall find , knock and the door shall be open up to you I testify that I know this is true.